Friday, July 5, 2013

Feels and unexpected!

Desucon was a few weeks ago, the first Desucon that I didn't attend to, and really happy about that!
As I see pictures of amazing cosplay, especially my friends whom seem to get better nonstop, I feel like I'm left behind...

Even thou I've lost a great deal of weight from since I started cosplaying and now others have started to notice it too, I'm really happy about the comments but as I look in the mirror every day I see myself fatter than before, even if I'm buying smaller sized clothes I'm still the ugly me. No one is perfect but I'm far from normal, it hurts to see others how great they're looking as I embarres myself.

I started cosplaying because it was fun, to gain friends and I did! But now...all this pain...I'm lost...

Cosplay no longer holds the strong meaning of happiness for me as it did in the past. I'm not saying I'm quiting! I just don't enjoy it as much, knowing that I'll get more hurt by it.

Oh I was at Kawacon in Joensuu! I was working for Manga Café so I was mostly behind their table..
It was a very quiet convention, which was kinda sad but I still had a great time with Milla, going swimming and stuff!

Also almost done with Tifa!

Cute hotel!!!

Delicious cake at con!!!

Unfinnished Tifa!!